You Can Run

“You can run,” my doctor replied.

You could have heard a pin drop in the silent room as I turned and stared wide-eyed at him. Was he even listening at all? I had just explained to him that most days I couldn’t get up from the couch without my heart racing and everything turning black. I explain those symptoms and he gives me permission to run?

“but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:31‬ ‭ESV‬‬

The Isaiah verse has been precious to me for some time now. Every couple of years God reveals more of the verse for me. When the doctor said to me, “you can run”, I just marveled. Honestly, I am marveled at his stupidity! But I also marveled that maybe one day running would be possible.

That day is here. I have been doing what I can since my kidney transplant in December 2018. Beginning with very short walks and building up. But each day is different. Some days I sit. Some days I lay down. Some days I walk. And now some days I jog.

It is seriously just a jog. Not a run. And it doesn’t last long. But it is a step above walking. And it feels marvelous.

As a kid, I loved to run. I played all the sports and loved the feeling of working hard and pushing my body to the brink of exhaustion.

Chronic disease stole that from me for a long time. I’ve never given up exercising and I’ve just always done what I can.

This side of heaven, there are times when I just stagger along on a good day. Other days I am paralyzed by pain, fear, or worldly cares. And sometimes I have days where I can jog.

It’s so hard to wait on the Lord. It was especially hard when a medical professional was looking at me telling me I can run and I knew that wasn’t possible. The Lord wanted me to wait. He wanted me to rest. He had and still has so much for me to learn.

The Isaiah verse tells me to wait on the Lord to renew my strength.

I will wait on you, Lord. And as I wait, some days I will walk and some days I will run.

And one day I will soar.

Off My Pedestal

She says to me, “How can I stop being so selfish? How can I stop focusing so much on myself?”


Oh God, isn’t that the question I’ve been facing for months?


Look up, child.


See the sun illuminating the trees? That sun shines from above. Look up.


Look up, child.


See the wispy white clouds blanketing the sky? Something greater than you painted those clouds up there. Look up.


Look up, child.


Hear the bird singing atop the tree? He flies high above you. Look up.


Look up, child.


Lift up your chin. Lift up your eyes. Lift up your mind.


Looking downward I see my flesh. I think about my aches and pains. I think about the rip in the side of my shoe. My to do list begins flooding my mind.


But You say, look up, child.


I can’t see me anymore. I only see You.
You in all your glory. You in all your beauty. You in all your strength. You in all your creativity.


I’m off my pedestal and in the palm of your hand.


Look up, child. Look up, child

Show Mercy, Have Compassion

Lord, forgive me for all the many times I have withheld compassion and mercy. Help me to show compassion especially when I don’t understand.

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Search and Cleanse Your Heart

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Welcome! I am Lisa, promoter of Jesus, sharing my faith through chronic disease and trial.

When you read the book of Proverbs does it feel like a list of impossible tasks or impossible to achieve behaviors?

Read Proverbs 20 and see the instruction given about our hearts. We first need cleansing and healing of our hearts in order for our actions to be what we truly desire them to be.

WAIT!

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Wait! We don’t like to hear that word. But when we “hear” wait from the Lord,, we can actually be encouraged!

Read Romans chapter 8 with me today.

How to Access Peace

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Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.”

‭‭John‬ ‭14:27‬

Try this calming technique: 5-4-3-2-1 to better access God’s peace.