God keeps taking me deeper, into deeper levels of freedom. Just over 6 months ago, I wrote this, Freedom and I was overwhelmed with that deep level of freedom.
He’s unwrapping the blockades like an onion, layer by layer; the blockades that have been blinding me from further freedom. He shows me there’s still this wall of anxiety between us. He reveals there’s still this fence of doubt getting in the way. And then He opens my eyes to a layer of fear stumbling me on His path
Despair threatens to set in. “Oh God, I thought I had moved past anxiety, doubt, and fear.” But, His strong loving voice assures me, He has yet more for me still.
On the other side of the chains of despair, He has LIFE awaiting me. And, He has LIFE awaiting you!
Have you ever thought of the people shouting, “Hosanna, blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!”? They shouted the term hosanna, meaning save us. I imagine them feeling sold out to Jesus, placing their hopes in him, thinking they were finding and receiving freedom. Laying down their cloaks, their cut branches. Perhaps feeling as if they were laying down their hearts in submission.
But, we know those same sold out people, the ones willing to lay down their offerings, changed their cry just days later to “crucify him”. When Pilate asked, “Why?”, they only shouted again, “Crucify him!”
It’s hard to imagine this extreme change in behavior from “save us, Oh, God!” to “kill him!” until I allow the Lord to show me what’s in my heart.
Am I much different than the hosanna shouting people? Am I really any different at all than the people I read about in Matthew 21?
Then the multitudes who went before and those who followed cried out, saying: “Hosanna to the Son of David! ‘Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord!’ Hosanna in the highest!” Matthew 21:9
One day I claim freedom and power and then the next day, when faced with a trial, I claim my life as my own and kill God’s voice of love.
I, too, shout, “Save me!” and then I crucify Him by holding up my blockade once again and kill His plan for my life.
As He unwraps these blockades, chipping away at my attempts at crucifixion, His freedom fills my soul.
When I see Jesus for who he is and not what he can do for me, he changes my cry. He puts my life in order.
My cry becomes crucify my flesh, my will, and my desire.
Oh Lord, hosanna, save me!